Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

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Zimmy and I are buddies, He is a door to a bad boy life style. some days ago he asked me if I wanted to try some vids, i told him no. cuz i wasn't in the mood.
couple of days ago when he wasn't home i did try a little bit of that, I didn't feel any thing.
yesterday we were planning to do some clubbing, but he looked at me and ask me intead if i want to do some thing diffrent, while his eyes were gazzeling. I smiled and said wat?
he offer me a pill, I knew it was e. while ago he show them ti me and told me his stories when he was on it.
I always like to try every kind of shits! For me it sounds more logical if one try some thing and then talk about its harm, compare to a person who has no experiance of things and always talk about tis disadvantage. ( unless the person 100% beleive in what he is saying)
I remember I had a religous teacher who once told us If a person is in prison and he doesn't still any money, that doesn't mean that he is a reliable person. A reliable person is rhe one, who has all the opportuinty to do s.t wrong and he still doesn't.

Any ways back to story: I start trying it by 1/4 of pill, and an hour later when i felt nothing i tried the other 1/4.
It was around 6-7 that i was loughting my ass off. I had no side effect. I was just loughting, and make fun of my firend . in an hour i thought I'm back in normal situation. no more loughting, Zimmy suggest me to try some more. ( last night I thought i had 1.5 pills, but I was surprise that there was no half a pill left. I m not sure If i lost it, or If I had only one, or as zimmy said i had 2. ( there was no way that I had 2. I can't recall cuttig a pill)
any way I didn't get to the point of laoughing so much any more. Zimmy told me that I had to drink lots of water, and walk. when I was walking i felr that i'm dizzy and my bloood pressure was so down. I couldn't walk fast, and I had to be careful not to fell down.
i was chatting with a firend, and when i was looking at computer oi could see that the screen is moving up and down. and my hand was shaking.
When I was chatting I thought I knew what I was talking about. But i was so carefreee. I didn't give a damn what my firend might think about me. I was talking about my dark sides. stuff i only confess to myself when I'm really angry. My poor firend who used to think of me as an angle, didn't want to hear those things but still I was trying to make him believe thats my truth self.


The end of story:

• I don't feel bad about what i told him, I feel released, even If he don't beleive me.
• I start eating after 32 hours. during taht time I could just drink water and tea and a small pieaces of chokolate, ( for my low bloof pressure)
• My face was soooo freeking pale. u could just see 2 eyes and red lips. I don't know if it was scary or funy or interesting.!!!!
• 10 hours of having hang over didn't worth only 2 hours of LMAO. instead I can watch a funny movie!

A firend of mine called me and was so shocked by wat i did, I thougth she was concern about my health, but she asked me wat did I do with "my poor firend".!!!!

luv u firend jan!